Saturday, September 26, 2009
Senior Year
"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending."
Monday, March 2, 2009
Summer, Life, and ugh
first a friend told me about this video....please watch it is so touching it really hit me! i know i find myself asking this/ these questions a lot. Where is God when all kinds of bad stuff happens in my life?! i have had plenty of pain in my life, and yes it has made me who i am today, but would i have really wanted to go through all that? heck no, but its in the past. i need to remember God is ALWAYS with us.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vym5YXPaD5s
another revelation....well its a very personal one. i need to love me! yea i might be OK with me, if that...but i rely on other people to like me so i don't have to. That's not good i cant do that. I know i have tried to do this before, but i know if i don't do this, that other people can't truly love me.
ANYWAY...there is a lot on my mind lately especially like trying to find a job, and getting a loan for summer courses....ugh life! sorry not much to write lately, maybe i will be more in the mood to write later this week.
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Wednesday, February 18, 2009
How long have we known each other?
You Find Out Who Your Friends Are by. Tracy Lawrence
You find out who your friends are
Somebody's gonna drop everything
Run out and crank up their car
Hit the gas, get there fast
Never stop to think 'what's in it for me?' or 'it's way too far'
They just show on up with their big old heart
You find out who your friends are
Everybody wants to slap your back
wants to shake your hand
when you're up on top of that mountain
But let one of those rocks give way then you slide back down look up
and see who's around then
This ain't where the road comes to an end
This ain't where the bandwagon stops
This is just one of those times when
A lot of folks jump off
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Monday, January 26, 2009
A Class on DEATH...
Taking this class, Death, Grief, and Caring, for J-Term I thought would really get to me, and WOW was I right. This class has made me remember all the people I have lost, but not only that, but how much I want to change myself and become a better person. I realize how we take for granite our tomorrows, and just assume the morning will come. I want to live more day by day and not take for people and time for granite. I want to learn to tell people how I feel and not leave things for tomorrow. I want to live with no regrets, and live like I am dieing, like today could always be my last day.
Another thing that this class has really made me think about is how I treat and/or judge other people. I realize that I judge other people when I have no clue what is going on in their lives. Thinking about this has made me want to change that too, because that person could be hurting and I’m just sitting around judging them. I always see people sitting alone, and I never go up and just say hi, or smile at them. How do I know that, that person isn’t contemplating suicide, and maybe I save their life by saying hi? I completely believe this can happen because I experienced it my freshmen year of college.
Strangers can make the difference sometimes and save lives. If it wasn’t for a stranger one winter night my freshmen year I would not be here typing this now. God sends all kinds of people in to our lives for reasons we may not know. All I know is that I want to be one of those people; I want to open my heart and start being more like God wants me to be. I want to care more and stop taking this life for granite. I want to live like I am dieing and not look back. I want to live each day to the fullest and leave nothing unsaid.
Tim McGraw- Live Like You Were Dieing
He said I was in my early forties
with a lot of life before me
when a moment came that stopped me on a dime
and I spent most of the next days
looking at the x-rays
Talking bout the options
and talking bout sweet time
I asked him when it sank in
that this might really be the real end
how’s it hit you when you get that kinda news
man what’d you do
and he said
I went sky diving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named fumanchu
and I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
and I gave forgiveness I’d been denying
and he said someday I hope you get the chance
to live like you were dying.
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Thursday, January 1, 2009
"Don't Blink"
Well Happy New Year to everyone! I can not believe it is 2009 already and that means so many things. 1. I graduate from college next year already. Holy crap it seems like I was just a senior in high school. 2. I’m almost 21 3. My little brother is almost 16 and driving (eek). 4. Well I guess I could just keep going…but I wont. Anyway it’s another year gone and another one ahead of us. Where does time go.
Thinking back on this past year like I am sure many people do when it gets near New Years, I was trying to remember what all has happened this year. It took me awhile because some things feel like they were forever ago, and others just yesterday. As I am getting older and I guess you could say growing up, I am finally starting to see what my parents always said about “wishing your life away” and “it goes faster then you think”. In a few years I will be out on my own maybe even starting a family, wow that is pretty crazy to think about sometimes. To think that I am getting older and then seeing children in my family like siblings and cousins growing up and remembering when they were not even born are now 10 years old or older just makes you go WOW.
I’m finally seeing things from my parents view about watching me grow up and seeing how fast time does go while you are living. I know we can’t live in the past and we also can’t change anything because it’s done and over with, but instead we need to look to the future and focus on what’s to come so we can make it what we want it to be. We have out memories from the past year and although some may be very bad memories im sure we have some great ones that make us smile too. So this is to make 2009 just as good if not better than 2008, and to make more memories that will last a lifetime. Remember “don’t wish your life away”!
Instead of a quote I decided on lyrics again because they are too perfect! This song is called
“Don’t Blink” by. Kenney Chesney (This is just some of the lyrics)
“I was glued to my tv when it looked like he looked at me and said
"Best start putting first things first."
Cause when your hourglass runs out of sand
You can't flip it over and start again
Take every breathe God gives you for what it's worth
Don't Blink
Just like that you're six years old and you take a nap and you
Wake up and you're twenty-five and your high school sweetheart becomes your wife
Don't blink
You just might miss your babies growing like mine did
Turning into moms and dads next thing you know your "better half"
Of fifty years is there in bed
And you're praying God takes you instead
Trust me friend a hundred years goes faster than you think
So don't blink”
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